If Only's

Here's how cen feels right now:
shitty
Angry
Sad
Traumatized
Depressed

She had no idea she will be running low on luck yesterday she got herself burned on her face arms and hands. For once in her life, she was really traumatized and not feeling good at the moment. WHY WHY WHY? Who should she blame? The oven? The whole baking job? or her luck? For a while there,She had the sudden hate towards baking after all the tragedy happened.

If only She didnt bake
If only she didnt use that oven
If only she's not a baker
If only she didnt have an order on that day
You know..there are lots of if only's she wants to say it out.

The minute she got burnt she hated baking,for once.Well..dont blame her.Blame the fire,Blame the tragedy-she thought.She was just traumatized by the event. When she got out from the hospital, she looked herself into the mirror. For a while there, she felt extremely scared for having any abnormalities on the face thts going to happen in the future.Yes she did cried looking herself in the mirror with all the bruises and burnt marks.People who visited her kept telling that would leave scars on her face, she needs to really take good care of it. Okay-that was a great way of words to courage a person. After a while, she started thinking with a sober mind

"shld she really quit baking?" part of her said yes while the other part said no. Almost 80% folks who visited told her to quit.It took a while when she could find her answer-NO- she is not quitting and NEVER. Trauma is trauma.It's just another different thing. She will never let trauma overcome her. Shit happens smtimes and its something that we couldnt turn back. She has come all the way to this far from a small bud to beautiful flower and all of a sudden quitting? Thats just ridiculous- she thought. She learned from that whole experience. After all, she cant disappoint those who are already behind her.

Well at least she felt blessed she's alive. people surrounds her care for her. They tried their best in helping. Later that noon she got a call from her sis to fly to sgpore.There-s always a way in dealing things. Next evening after that day, she flew off to sgp, went straight to the doctor and was relieved. She is recovering any time soon but her mind still clogged with worries when her fam told her she wont leave a single mark on face-she did really believe them till the doctor said he had to monitor her for quite a while. So she wont be taking an order for now till the next coming month. What matters most, she still felt so much blessful after the tragedy.